Therapy: A New Perspective

Disclaimer:This is only my opinion on therapy and a new perspective on it. Everyone’s experience will be different and not the same. This is only my view on it, therefore, I ask that you please be kind, respectful, and understanding. 

 Therapy. Here we go again *sigh * Hey everyone!!! I hope you all are doing great and having a fantastic day. So, as you can see based on the title alone, I guess you can tell what this blog post will be about. If you read my previous blog, you would have learned that I FINALLY made the decision to go and see a therapist about what’s going on in this big head of mine. After my first therapy session, I guess you can say I have a new perspective on therapy. I must admit it really has caused me to be more open-minded about it and helps me to think about a lot of things that have taken place in my life. Which, before the session, I didn’t realize, actually had an effect on me. With that being said, I think it is time that I share some light on this topic… YAYYY!!! Let’s get to it.

 The word ‘Therapy’ can be defined as “a treatment used to help treat someone with a mental or physical disorder.” As for me, I did “Physiological Therapy” or in simple terms “Talking Therapy.” Don’t worry, I am not going out of my mind or anything of that sort I promise you. It was simply me going to a therapist to finally open up about my problems and just talk about ME. Sounds selfish, doesn’t it… well, it’s more of taking care of yourself before others. Therapy is about YOU. You talk to a professional about YOUR issues and problems, they are simply there to listen to you and guide you or give advice on how to deal with them.  Now there are different types of talk therapy that you can do, such as: over the phone, online course, self-help book, in-group session, or one-on-one session. I did the “one-on-one” therapy session, which I think suits me best because I am a person who loves deep one-on-one conversations. After my first experience doing the whole therapy session, it has really changed how I previously felt about it. Like my entire attitude has changed. *giggles *

Keep in my mind, even after I reached a point where I realized that I knew I should see a therapist; I just didn’t care to see one because I felt like I cured myself enough. Not only that, but my mindset was, “What is new that the therapist is going to tell me that I haven’t already heard from my close friends or those who I have spoken with?” So, of course, I kept the thought of seeing one to the back of my head until I actually got to see one. BOY WAS I WRONG!!!! When I say after the first session, my mind was blown away… I’m talking hurricane/tornado-blown the hell away. The questions he asked and the way he was able to explain to me what is mentally happening to me just AMAZED me.

 A few days, maybe two days after seeing my therapist, I started to think about different things that have been happening in my life. I began to reminisce on a particular job I use to have when I was in my mid-teen years and how I use to be treated. Then after a while, I started to think of situations that I overcame over the past few years and how I believe it has helped me to mature and prepared me for handling many other cases as a result. That night, I cried myself to sleep because I couldn’t shake the feeling off of me. This is because I didn’t understand why it is I couldn’t stop thinking about all these situations. The next day, I went to work, but still felt I guess you could say “numb’ to the feeling of what I felt the previous night. It got to a point where I couldn’t function at work, and my boss could tell something was wrong, but I couldn’t make out words to say what it was to them. I just messaged my best girlfriend and explained to her how I felt mentally because if no one else could understand how I felt… it would be her. She began to explain to me on the phone what she thinks was happening and she was absolutely right. I know you guys are thinking, “What was happening to you, Odette?” patience I was getting into that. 

 Basically, my therapist put things into perspective for me and subconsciously, I was thinking about what all he had said, and it triggered some past situations that made me realize a lot of things. Crazy right? I know. In summary, because you all don’t need to know everything *giggles * it made me realize that deep down inside… I was burying a lot of things that have hurt me in the past that I never spoke about. Situations such as dealing with persons, always taking my kindness for weakness. Times where people took advantage of me because they knew I was too scared to actually stand up for myself and say how I felt. Being called ugly to my face more than once. Feeling unappreciated and feeling used when I was doing acts of kindness. Insecurities and anger issues that I know I need to address sooner than later and feeling disappointed in myself feeling like a failure. It also opened up my mind that all of these events happening are just building me to become stronger than I used to be. Now I am a Christian, and I do believe in certain things, and I feel like God, and the universe is trying to also show me something. I am still not clear on what it is as yet, but what I can say is that this path that I am on is preparing me for something. At first, I was scared, but now I am just numb to everything. In my previous post, I was sad and now I only… feel… I don’t know. *sigh * I never would have thought I would feel like this. So to anyone who has seen a therapist or currently seeing one, please enlighten me and let me know if this feeling is normal because this is crazyyyy. 

 This feeling is totally new for me, which is interesting, but that’s life. We experience new things and new feelings daily. It is what it is. So yeah guys, I see going to therapy in a new light. I can admit, I was wrong about how I felt about seeing a therapist, but now that I have seen one, I feel like it is something that is most definitely needed. What I will say is I am glad that I am now getting professional help. This was and is a great experience, especially for me because I am oblivious to my own problems considering that I seem to give good advice to my peers. My perspective again, I will say has changed a lot; I feel like therapy has opened a mental door for me that needed to be broken down and just be de-cluttered. I think that if you or if you know of anyone that you feel needs to see a therapist just go and visit one. Even if you do only one session, but I guarantee you will go back for more sessions, so try it, what hurt could it cause? I really think that it can and could possibly help you to mentally heal. Especially if you are someone who is always trying to be strong for everyone else around you and you are like me who blocks out their feelings just to help out someone else. If this is you, I think this is something you should look into.  You will be amazed about what hidden emotions come to the surface, and you will realize that there are things that you thought were normal emotions aren’t actually normal feelings to be having. Those emotions are actually there because of something that you thought didn’t affect you but actually did. Again, I encourage you to go and visit a therapist or at least convince someone to go. Take it from someone like me who thought she could “self-cure” herself. Until next time everyone… love you lots.