The Breaking Point - Where's the Resignation Letter to Life
Odette
“Resignation Letter; an official letter sent by an employee to their employer stating their intention to leave their company/place of employment. ”
Now that I’ve stated what a resignation letter is…Where do I turn in my letter for the “position” of life? PAUSE & DISCLAIMER! There is no need to think “extreme” about my question. It is only an expression to ONLY express my tiredness because I’ve reached my breaking point. Therefore, to you sweet “special” persons who may be quick to run a fountain from your mouth…let the record reflect I don’t mean anything more profound than what I am saying. Hello, my beautiful “Thorns & Roses,” aka Bloomers! I pray that you are doing well and not choosing violence unless necessary. Did you miss me? It’s okay if you didn’t, but I missed you. Teehee!!
Seriously though. Where do I put in my resignation letter? Truthfully I’ve reached my breaking point! Is anyone else who feels the way I feel right now, or only me? Like mentally, you’re just tired, and it’s starting to affect you physically. You want things to go your way, but the more you try to be in control, the more chaos you feel. However, on the flip side, you pray & let it go, but it’s still in the back of your mind, and hoping for a sign from God. I can honestly say, towards the end of January until now, it’s been ROUGH OUT HERE & GHETTO but Glory to the Almighty Father above. It’s not like anyone has done anything to me besides the few times the multiple Uncircumcised Philistines & Goliath have attempted to test me. More so, I think for me, I’m simply just exhausted. It’s difficult to explain how I feel because it’s rather complex. The best way to explain this is to say I am not being still when I should be, as it says in Psalms 46:10. I have an itch in my “flesh” to just quit or, as the church people say, “throw in the towel” and just say TO HELL WITH THIS! Yes. I am trying to choose my words carefully because anything I say, do, or write apparently can be used against me to throw in my face. But this is my platform, so…kick rocks!
We are now 6/7 months into this year, and it’s just been one thing after another with no breaks in between. One minute I’m frustrated with my job; the next minute, friends/family just want me to freak out on them; a couple of seconds later, Riley causing controversy; out of the blue moon, my relationship is being tested, and other times, I’m just questioning life. “The Pressure is Getting Worse!” I know you want details, but I promise to give you all “story time” on my channel when the time is right. But just to give you all a preview, a few months back, I had 2 encounters & never in my life thought that would happen to me. Long story short, a back n’ forth led to people getting in their feelings and attempting to poke at me in my “personal affairs” (apparently, I have no business). The calmer I remained, the more they poked and got worked up. It’s funny because I knew what they were trying to do, but jokes on them, though! I can tell you this, though, God was with me that day because if He wasn’t, that would be the day of “judgment.” Then recently, over something that was out of my control but happened over HORRIBLE miscommunication. God knows I hate that & I almost flipped out. But things like this can set anyone off and cause them to reach a point. As for me, over the past few months till now, it is safe to say the Breaking Point has been met & I want my resignation letter so that I can go back in time to the less dreadful days.
I spoke with my spiritual mother and vented to her about how I’ve been feeling, and I expressed to her what I’ve been going through mentally. The enemy is cunning, to say the least. Of course, she gave me words of wisdom and, not to give up & that I am trying too hard when I don’t need to. God has me, and I simply just need to breathe. It’s funny because this “breaking point” feeling isn’t just a breaking point. A part of it is a bit of drought and warfare. Despite us being in spring (well it will be Summer by the time as I publish this), you can still battle those spiritual warfare attacks. In the end, I give God all thanks & praise because all of this is not in vain…I know this semi “drought” season I am feeling is coming to an end. Whatever the enemy has for evil, God is turning it around for the better. And for you all who think the way I do, as annoying as it is to hear this, keep pressing forward. Remain still in the midst of it. Don’t throw in the towel. Do not be discouraged though it is hard. Continue to give all thanks and praise… it’s not easy, trust me, I know, but we got this. We are all human; if you must cry, scream, or do things of the flesh, go ahead – there’s no judgment, just be careful and use wisdom. Choose violence Responsibly though I rather you NOT! Have a Great day, and of course…
